Being patient is hard. I have always been an impatient and curious person. The worst thing you can say to me is "I have something to tell you, but I will tell you later." I want to know now! Perhaps because of the impatience, I also tend to worry a lot. My latest worry is news that the US government could shut down at the end of the month. Now, I have never been one to be all political, or even follow politics THAT closely (but I get informed enough to vote when it is time....EVERYONE needs to vote). So, I had no idea that the US government could shut down. Now, I know enough to know that an election is coming up in the US, and that the last threat of a shut down was averted. Why do I care so much about the US government you ask?
Well, our visa lies in the balance. If the government shuts down everything stops with the visa process. If it stops for a long period of time, our selected wedding date could be in jeopardy. I could spend hours and hours of needless worry about all the ways this could play out. But, I am trying not to. You see, one of the many things I learned this past year is that worry gets you nowhere. I read somewhere that only 8% of the things you worry about (that includes things as significant as a loved ones health, to as insignificant as the weather) ever actually happen. Now I am no math genius, but that means that we are wasting a heck of a lot of time worrying. I bet that the 8% that does happen, you have no control over anyway.
I am resolving to trust that God has a plan for Jim and me. I will trust that everything will work out the way it is supposed to and go back to thinking about more important things like wedding colors, bridesmaid dresses, flowers, our future together, our upcoming Sacrament etc.
On a totally unrelated note, no one ever told me how surreal it would feel to be engaged. All of my life, I have waited to find the man I wanted to marry. Finding him now, it is so strange to be looking at my hand and seeing an amazing ring. It blows my mind that I am planning a wedding and marriage with the love of my life. I still sort of pinch myself that God has blessed me this much. I can't believe how much my life is going to change, and how happy I am to build a life with Jim. The funny thing is that if you would have told me even 3 years ago I would be married soon and be moving to Minnesota, I would have laughed and laughed. Now, I am excited beyond belief. I almost want to have a crystal ball to see what our future will bring. I guess like Guns N Roses says...all I need is just a little patience.
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